Getting Anxious

I can’t believe that three weeks ago today I finished my last chemo infusion. I’m feeling pretty darn good…physically. Mentally…well, I’m doing ok. I occasionally feel a little down about the uncertainty of what’s next. It is still almost two weeks until my post-treatment testing to learn about the current status of the cancer. I’m a little anxious, but try not to dwell on it. The surgeon’s office called this week with my surgery date. Even though I know it’s not an absolute, having a date now on the calendar makes it feel more real…like it is more of a possibility. That kind of bummed me out for awhile. If surgery is necessary, it will be on November 5. I’m still hanging on to the hope that the testing in a few weeks will tell us the cancer is so dead (and has not spread) that surgery is not needed. We will continue to stay positive and take it one step at a time.

Milton falls asleep almost as soon as I pick him up.